~PAIN~

Before coming here, I thought that my life's gonna change, everything will be different from what I've experienced back in Malaysia. But nothing seems to change, not even a bit. I wish I have my best friends with me now, I really need them. My family, Mom, Dad, my achik, they know how to cheer me up when I'm sad, they know how I feels, they will stay by my side, even when I'm in deep shit. These guys don't really know how to make friends with others. All they care about is that, they live everyday, they are happy, and they got what they wanted. That's all that they think about. I don't know how they valued friendship. What is friendship actually? To me, it is something, more like FAMILY LOVE. You shared everything, sadness, happiness, ups and downs, easy to say, everything you shared! That is exactly what I did to them! And how exactly they repay me? The black sheep of this FRIENDSHIP! Haa, so called best friends, my family in German, we shared everything, fuck it! Now, the only thing that keeps me strong is that, the advice from my inspiration! He once said to me "Son, in Life, there's many bad things than good things. You have to go through the hardships, to get something better. And it is not only in studies, or work, but also in social life. So, I want you to be like water. Water always get through any obstacles! take for examples, waterfalls. to get to the ocean, it passed through rocks, mountains, soils, n everything! but in the end, it reached its goal: SEA. it is the strongest thing on earth. So, be like water son".So, that is what i do right now. Be like water, face any challenge! In order to get to my goals in Life. It's just that, sometimes, it hurts so bad. I'm not the kind that write a blog like a diary, but I don't know where else I can express my feelings. There's no one here to listen to my probs. Back in Malaysia, everyone's busy with their own life. I have no rights to disturb them. So, I write this blog, and express what I felt, just to calm down myself.