~memoirs~

There are things in this world that just can't be replaced by others, everyone has their own valuables, so do I. As I said before, I valued friendship n family the most. And they are things that I can't replace with no other. Back in high school, I let my self create loads of memories with my friends. Most of them are not really appropriate for us, but they are my sweet memories with my friends. One thing I remembered the most, is that, just before our SPM exams, I stayed in hostel for a couple days. Those are the glorious days of my life. Did many bad things with my friends, but the only thing that was caught is we pranked girls from our class. It was a stupid thing to do actually, but we enjoyed it! collecting frogs after midnight, put them in a gift box, wrapped them nicely, and final step: put them on the girl's tables. Next day, girls from our class cried because of that, and I was their target, I don't know how they could say that, but yeah, I'm bad!haha.. And that day, the whole day, I and my bestie budd: Khairul, were grounded in teacher's room.. even the principal came and talked to us, told us many things like: you are still young, you have to get a grip of yourself, be a better man, be a leader, blah, blah n blah... we were just laughing that time. we enjoyed being tortured by the teachers. we even asked for more.. teachers really mad at us that time.. Now, whenever I contacted a teacher, the only story about me that they still remember, is that story. And they always said, school is never the same without you guys.. well, high school is just one chapter of life. And that time, I tried so hard just to destroy the school! Teachers, friends, no matter how hard i tried, they never really care about it.. they just said: naughty kid, trying to create troubles.. Now, I wish I had more time at school, experience everything all over again, be a LEGEND!haha..
GUYS,TEACHERS, sorry for troubling you all with my stupidity! Sumimasen!

~PAIN~

Before coming here, I thought that my life's gonna change, everything will be different from what I've experienced back in Malaysia. But nothing seems to change, not even a bit. I wish I have my best friends with me now, I really need them. My family, Mom, Dad, my achik, they know how to cheer me up when I'm sad, they know how I feels, they will stay by my side, even when I'm in deep shit. These guys don't really know how to make friends with others. All they care about is that, they live everyday, they are happy, and they got what they wanted. That's all that they think about. I don't know how they valued friendship. What is friendship actually? To me, it is something, more like FAMILY LOVE. You shared everything, sadness, happiness, ups and downs, easy to say, everything you shared! That is exactly what I did to them! And how exactly they repay me? The black sheep of this FRIENDSHIP! Haa, so called best friends, my family in German, we shared everything, fuck it! Now, the only thing that keeps me strong is that, the advice from my inspiration! He once said to me "Son, in Life, there's many bad things than good things. You have to go through the hardships, to get something better. And it is not only in studies, or work, but also in social life. So, I want you to be like water. Water always get through any obstacles! take for examples, waterfalls. to get to the ocean, it passed through rocks, mountains, soils, n everything! but in the end, it reached its goal: SEA. it is the strongest thing on earth. So, be like water son".So, that is what i do right now. Be like water, face any challenge! In order to get to my goals in Life. It's just that, sometimes, it hurts so bad. I'm not the kind that write a blog like a diary, but I don't know where else I can express my feelings. There's no one here to listen to my probs. Back in Malaysia, everyone's busy with their own life. I have no rights to disturb them. So, I write this blog, and express what I felt, just to calm down myself.